Today is 21st,april,2009, it has been 30 days that captain and i contacted to each  other. Captain is a seaman in the international maritime vessel which only transport the petrol on abroad,i never saw such a big vessel which has length of 300 meters, heigth of more than 30 meters and width of over 60 meters and i just have to image it after Captain told me so. Captain is the 3rd officer in this kind of vessel and i noted from him that he will be the 2nd officer soon.

     I don't know how to explain the fate between him and me,or maybe he is my destiny. i like him by no any reason, and he always appear in my mind in the date and night time. also i don't know how to expain the beginning of our relations, cause it just like a story, and i would like to recall this story cause it is dramatic one.

    Captain is the nephew of our neighbour aunt Zhou, last year, in 2008,aunt zhou wanted to introduce him to me , cause she met me during my vocation at home in June, she thought i was a nice girl without boyfriend and she wanted to introduce me to her nephew. i noted this matter after i came back company from home, my mother told me this and i did not care too much, because i think i was still very young and i did not want to get my mr.right through the introduction by somebody else because it was not natural, so at that time, my mother also kept silence, and did not give the exact reply to aunt Zhou, so she introduced another girl to Captain, and there was no any news after that.

      During the chinese new year, i went back home and my mother told me that it was failed for the introduction between Captain and another girl, and this news was told by the grandma of that girl, that granma told my mother that Captain was a very wordless boy,never know the way how to communicate with a girl. i felt it very interesting for this news,but i did not think too much, cause i still did not care about this matter.But on night of lunar 29th of Dec.,2008, aunt Zhou came to my home and at the same time, i was in the city centre to going shopping and have my hair washed and cutted, my brother informed me by phone and asked me to come back home quickly, but it took about 2 hours to finish everything in the downtown and i thought maybe aunt Zhou could not wait so long time and have left. but when i arrived into the house, i saw her sitting in the living room and watching TV with my elder brother, i felt very surprised that how she could wait me for more than 2 hours? Maybe she was very sincere to put me and Captain together. i did not ask her the reason, i did the apologize to her and felt very sorry about my delaying. she smiled and said" it doesn't matter" and so on, then she started her long introduction for Captain, i noted the job of Captain and his family, i noted that his salary was very high but this was not the point, aunt Zhou asked me not to lose this good chance but i thought she was very humorous.  Aunt Zhou described too much about him and said he was a very very very good boy, but all was what she said,i could not believe too mcuh.After that long talking with aunt Zhou, i finally left my mobile number and said "if possible,i think he would call me, let it be!" and then i saw aunt Zhou off in the doorway.

     After my vocation of chinese new year, i came back to company to work, and during these two months, i never think that he would give me a call. the life of working was so busy and boring, everyday was very normal, nothing especial happened, i worked same as before, and time flied.

     On 21st of Mar.,2009, i received one strange message at around 10:30 in the night,it was sent from a strange mobile number, it was said" do you fall sleep now? did you work today? how about tomorrow, will you be free tomorrow", i thought maybe this messgae was from one of my old friend who changed the mobile so i replied then, but there was no reply after, and i quickly fell into sleep. on the next day,i received another message from it, it was the self-introduction of Captain, then i noted who that was,i felt surprised again that why he contacted me now? why did not he contact me earlier? he also gave me the explaination without my asking that he just came back from abroad,and he just got my mobile number and then contacted me immediately. I understood then but we did not comunicate too much by sending short message on that day, but at the noon time, he gave me a call and i answered, the first impression he gave to me was his voice was so nice and soft, and his pronunciation of mandarin was very standard, this is a good beginning i think,cause we talked too much for near 1 hour, to be honest, i never talked so long time with others by phone except my parents.i think both of us gave good impression to each other, and i doubted the information from the grandma of that previous girl, i did not think that Captain was a wordless guy, if so,how could he chat with me for almost 1 hour? Maybe our jobs are similar, cause i am in line of international business, and he is in line of international maritime transportation, we have the something in common.

      During these 30 days, we contacted each other very frequently, i felt very happy but also a little upset, cause i could not understand him sometimes,i felt upset for his late reply for my short message or my telephone calling. sometimes, i gave him calling, but there was no answer, when he told me that whole day he worked around the clock, i could forgive him at once. sometimes, i think maybe he did not like me, he just treat me like a normal friend, never consider to treat me as "girlfriend to be", yes, right, nobody can fall in love with a girl by such way----no meeting each other, no knowing each other very well, contacting each other only for 30 days.yes,yes, you are right, this is the point, nobody can take the risk to show the heart out to another, but i am different.

      I don't know how far and how long my love can walk on, i don't know how to do for the next, nobody can teach me, and nobody can instand of me to face. i only know that if i like him, i should wait him sincerely,i should trust him, i should do what he want me to do, even i have this plan that going back to hometown and opening one trainning school for teaching english for baby at age of 4-6 years old, because only by this way, i have enough time to stay with him when he comes back home and enjoys his long time vocation . am i foolish? wow, i think so, i would like to change myself when i meet my mr.right.