日志
23rd, April,2009
During these days, i was so busy cause there were so many customers came to company for order booking, everyday i must work till middlenight, i felt a little tired. but everyday when i am on the way back home, i always image that where he is at present, whether he is fine on the ship,or he is also busy same as me. i want to say i miss him, but i can not let him know this matter.because everything between him and me is uncertain, maybe something will be settled soon, cause after one month, he will come back home and come to my working place to meet. what's the result should be? will it be good or not? i don't know and nobody knows.
Today i sent one e-mail to him. before he left china, he told me the e-mail address of the ship and asked me to send e-mail to him. i did send two mails, but there was no reply from him. i think it doesn't matter, maybe he is busy or he rarely has chance to check the mail. no problem,all i want is only he is fine and happy during the time of sailing to the destination port.
Maybe i should not be so active, but i can not control myself. when i miss him, i can not stop my mind and thinking too much about our previous contact. what happened to me? what should i do? i should be a rational girl. or let it be, don't care too much about the result. i think the most important thing is to enjoy the process of contact between him and me and feel the life with sweet and bitter.
ah.....my life is changing....