日志
nothing special
I am in bad mood now,not only for the difficulties appeared in my work, also for the relation between Captain and me. Yes, during these days , there were too many headache things needed to be solved,these make me much too busy that everyday i worked around the clock, when i come back home and lay down on the bed for rest, i started to think of him and consider the situation of our love.I don't know why everytime only after i sent him message then he would give a reflection,it seems he never contact me actively,he doesn't like me? or is everything really just my imagination? Last time,in our last conversation by telephone, he told me maybe he would not come back,because his relatives thought that when he come back home, he would lossed too much money. when i noted this,i felt very disappointed,first is about his health, nobody can bear the life on the tanker for more than one year,and also i heard that the crude oil is not good for health,it is with noxioussubstance; second is about our love, it means that we only can make friends and contact to each other by telephone or e-mail without first seeing each other in the actural life? yes, i admit that i am fond of him, but i don't like such way for making friends, But what should i do? I don't know him, i don't understand him now even i don't know whether he like me or not.so it is unsuitable to tell him what i thought.
Today is 20th,may,2009, if we read this date in Chinese,the pronounciation for 520 is similar to the words' i love you', haha,it is a very interesting date, but who should i speak it to? Tomorrow also is a special date,i already mentioned in my first diary in this blog.
aha.......Let it be! I really don't want to care too much.