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Yesterday i received his message, i felt very happy to receive it, cause it seems have been long time i did not get the news about him, now i noted where he was, and noted he was ok but just a little busy for many kinds of inspection on the port. he used his captain's mobile to send me the message, the first idea came out from my mind was giving him a calling, but i was afraid whether it was convinient for him or not, his reply gave me the courage. i called him,i never care how much the communication expense would be after, i just want to hear his voice,so i called him, but finally we just talked 2-3 minutes and hang up the telephone, cause this mobile number was belong to his captain,he could not use it for long talking, it would cost too much to answer cause this mobile number was not the local one, we had to hang it up.To be honest, i felt a little disappointed,cause we have not talked with each other for long time. 2-3 minutes was not enough for me. but after around 20 minutes my captain called me, i felt very surprised, cause just now he told me he could not buy the charge card nearby, he could not use his mobile to call me. but now, he did call me.he bought card from his co-worker,maybe he also thought as i did.but we still could not continued for long time, cause the signal was so bad that after 5 minutes the line was cut.we had to stop, frankly speaking, when i talked with him, i felt very nervous,maybe i felt shy to speak with him. anyhow i called him again, but this time i heard the laughter from his co-worker, they were laughing at me maybe, cause they thought the international calling charge was very high, sending message might be the best way to communicate with each other.Captain's speaking proved my conjecture, he told me that the expense would be very high, he asked me whether i have something else to be talked to him, i told him there was nothing else. there was no need us to say byebye, the line was cut again. i felt very embarrassed, yes, why did i do like this? who am i ? i am not his girlfriend, i am not one of his relatives, why i called him so many times? am i crazy? yeah, i just like a stupid girl,somebody told me before:"maybe the more you do, the more he doesn't care,the girl can not be so active".but i never care about this, i just want to express my feeling to him.